When my husband and I decided to start trying for a family, it was a bittersweet time for me. I had always envisioned a childhood for my children similar to the one I had: close to family.
Our game plan had originally been to wait until he was done or almost done with optometry school before starting our family, but not long after he started, the baby fever hit us hard. We saw many other couples in the program able to balance both school and family life, so we decided, “Why wait?”
I have no regrets starting our family earlier than expected. In my opinion, this age is the prime time to be going through the newborn stage – when we’re still young enough to handle it well! However, my heart still aches knowing how far away both Landon’s grandparents are. I know their hearts ache, too.
Mom guilt: Boy, have I struggled with this one. My ultimate dream in life has always been to be a wife and mother. You know how some girls dream of the perfect wedding? I would lay in bed thinking about what my future husband would be like, how many kids we’d have, what their names would be, if they’d like dogs, etc. The only dream that surpasses that ultimate dream is to be a stay at home mom.