March 17, 2018April 12, 2018 Brooke So, you’re a working mom. And it’s tough. Really. Tough. While I was still on maternity leave, every time I thought about going back to work, I’d bawl, especially when that dreaded day continued to get closer and closer. Don’t get me wrong, I actually do love my job. I just love being a mom more.When not crying over having to return to work, I was stressing over how I’d manage to do it all: mom, work, clean, wife. So, finally I embraced the inevitable and did what I do best: plan. Mom guilt: Boy, have I struggled with this one. My ultimate dream in life has always been to be a wife and mother. You know how some girls dream of the perfect wedding? I would lay in bed thinking about what my future husband would be like, how many kids we’d have, what their names would be, if they’d like dogs, etc. The only dream that surpasses that ultimate dream is to be a stay at home mom. Now that I’ve been meal planning for awhile, I look back and shudder at all the money I wasted on groceries before Landon was born. We tried our hand at budgeting, and the weekly allotment for groceries was $88. Then, that seemed like so little, and I often struggled staying within the budget.Now, our budget has shrunk to accommodate baby expenses, and our new weekly allotment for groceries is $50. But, guess what? It’s possible! Hard, but feasible. When my husband and I decided to start trying for a family, it was a bittersweet time for me. I had always envisioned a childhood for my children similar to the one I had: close to family.Our game plan had originally been to wait until he was done or almost done with optometry school before starting our family, but not long after he started, the baby fever hit us hard. We saw many other couples in the program able to balance both school and family life, so we decided, “Why wait?”I have no regrets starting our family earlier than expected. In my opinion, this age is the prime time to be going through the newborn stage – when we’re still young enough to handle it well! However, my heart still aches knowing how far away both Landon’s grandparents are. I know their hearts ache, too. You know the term “supermom”? Me too, and this is definitely not a post on how to be supermom. My house has a normal amount of dirt, but it’s clean by my standards, and my standards tend to be higher than average. This schedule isn’t perfect, but the true key is finding a routine and sticking with it.